When I saw the opportunity online I knew I had to take it, a study looking for healthy volunteers to be given simulated neurological conditions in order to test products and to look at psychological effects of these conditions. It paid very well, but more importantly it gave me a pathway to be how I always wanted to be. I was nervous as I filled out the application hoping to be accepted. As long as I could remember, I had felt different like I should be disabled and now I was finally getting my chance to be how I wanted. A week or two later, I got the letter in the mail telling me I had been accepted. There was a survey looking for how far we were willing to be disabled for the study, I selected the maximum level. I was looking forward to it as I packed and left for the facility where the study would be taking place.When I arrived, I was taken to a room by a nurse and soon a doctor came in and explained what would happen, I would be given several injections that would give me the condition of someone who had a severe brain injury, it should be temporary but there were risks involved with participating. He gave me several forms to sign which I signed with no hesitation finally if only fleeting I would get the chance to be the way I had always wanted to be. He left and a few minutes later a nurse arrived and started taking my vitals and measuring my height and weight explaining that they wanted a complete idea of my current health for more accurate data. As she left she took my personnel belongings to take them to my room and gave me a gown to change into. Before long another nurse came in and inserted an IV and told me that they would do the injections to give me the condition under general anaestethia.After a few more minutes I was taken to an operating room and a mask was placed over my face. As things faded to black, I wondered what the future held and looked forward to when I awoke finally the way I wanted to be