Thank you for guiding me there.(I don't think that I express the thing clearly here But I rally have very bad English you know?)In fact I've learnt a lot from you.I said that I would try to be a good mother because you let me know how important a mother is to a child.And at that time I will talk to my husband and try to let him know how important he (a father) is too.Of course I believe that one day I will meet my one.I am sure and quite believe that there is a person in this world who fixes [fixes in not the right word here, like you are broken and need repaired? DO you mean fits you?] me and right now I am waiting for him and he is waiting for me somewhere. [yes,he is on another planet waiting for you] We both want to grow up and find a day to meet.I will never find the one who has married don't worry about that. Yes,I [missing a verb here] the feeling toward you but in my brain I know very clearly that you are not the one. Yet I respect you very much and want to be your true friend and share things(no the money you know that.)I don't want to keep distance from you and I know that you don't either. So why so?We didn't do anything and are not going to do anything that hurts others.I can just treat you as my closed [why am i closed? Do you mean close or closest?] friend and my teacher. And I would like to be your wife's friend too but I know it needs sometime [sometime it needs some time as well] I know this is the wise and right thing to do and I am doing it.