Indeed, while he clings to the cross, Rafael is happy even now in a way that no one could have imagined; in love for the cross of Christ he has found true happiness. He is happy when, at the foot of the cross of Christ, he tells him of his sufferings and offers Christ his delight in being loved by him, to such an extent that he forgets the hunger that he endures and that causes him so much suffering. He is happy a thousand times over even when, in his weakness, he at times complains. Yes, he is so happy that shortly before his death he begins to be suspicious about his happiness being so great and such a contrast to all that he had suffered earlier. He writes: