I was in the bridal suite preparing for my "marriage", which was to take place in two hours. I was extremely nervous, and my mother, aunts and sisters didn't help as they fussed around the hotel suite getting my makeup and hair done. My white chiffon dress hung neatly, ready on the front of the closet door. I sat at the vanity and tried to keep my pouting bottom lip from shaking as I wondered how I had come to this.