You cannot ignore your emotional world, but you feel the need to push something under the rug or at least put a delay button on it, so you can deal with it when you are ready. Feelings are rushing in and still need to remain hidden and put in weird contexts that might make you feel misunderstood.Talk to someone about your position, as hard as things might feel right now, and see how relationships turn, shift, change, and become more intimate depending on the level of empathy and contact you have with someone.