where did it begin? what went wrong

where did it begin? what went wrong? and who made you feel so worthless?if they wanted you, wouldn't they have chosen you?all this time, you were begging for love silentlythinking they couldn't hear you, but they smelt it on you. you must have known that they could taste the desperate on your skinand what about the others that would do anything for you?why did you make them love you until you could not stand it?how are you both of these women, both flighty and needful?where did you learn this; to want what does not want you?where did you learn this; to leave those that want to stay?He compares you to an impossible highway, to a burning house and says you are blinding himThat he could never leave you, forget you, want anything but youYou dizzy him, you are unbearable, every woman before or after youis doused in your name.You fill his mouth.His teeth ache with memory of taste. His body just a long shadow seeking yours, but you are always too intense.Frightening in the way you want himUnashamed and sacrificialHe tells you that no man can live up to the one who lives in your headBut even when sleeping you could feel him traveling away from you in his dreamsSo what did you want to do love, split his head open?You can't make homes out of human beingsSomeone should have already told you thatAnd if he wants to leave, then let him leaveYou are terrifyingAnd strange and beautifulSomething not everyone knows how to love.